(:

2009-09-05T07:18:00.001-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE.
hahha.
LAME LUH.
anw i kinda like, MOVED. to a different url and everything. hopefully people can see the tagboard and everything there now. i hope sooo.
SO, RELINK OR WHATEVER OR TAG. haha thank you!
CLICK HERE!
http://tinted-windowpanes.blogspot.com

it's 10:10 pm now. but blogger is funny so nevermind.
night earthlings.

2009-08-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

Heyy, gosh I still can't post the pictures on facebook and here! What's wrong mann.
Anw think life's kinda good I guess? Or just normal. Idk what to talk about here..
Ah, wanqin's birthday was on Tuesday! Finally, you're a teen! Hahaa happy rightt :D she had so many 'bashes' (: countless of them and all fun eh (: haha and number 4 is good to her now! So cute laa. Haha I guess some people don't know what I'm talking about huh. Oops.
Hmm Friday was staff day. It was funnnn. The rehearsals and all. Even though what I did on stage wasn't that good, haha but it was fun and everything (: got a taste of being with the council! Hehheh. It's nice.
I'm probably being stupid, being random and all, hee. So sorry. I'm rubbish-y now, excuse me (:
I shall stop nonsensing and rubbishing now, and stop being strange :D
Kk night!

2009-08-22T07:42:00.000-07:00

UGH MOZILLA FIREFOX IS KILLING MEEEE.
never mind.
ice! i need ice to chill (:
haha lameee.
REALLY UH.
can't upload pictures for example.
can't go into some pages, for another example.
and for another example, it just sucks, can't do much.

mannnnn.
how to upload!
on facebook also can't.
then the thailand pictures would be loooong due, i'm sorry.
okay gotta go now, bye.

2009-08-21T21:05:00.000-07:00

Hello (:
Sigh.
Why aren't you awake yet? Whoa it's like 12.06pm now. And it's the 22nd, haha, cos stupid blog's date and time's funny, so I do this :D Anw/ But it's okay, guess you were tired.
Hmm I haven't checked my phone yet.
Okay it's checked. Will reply all my messages after this (:
Ytd was the finals for the soccer c div, went to watch, sports school against victoria school. It was a hard fight and both teams were really good, especially vs' cheering. (cool atmosphere (: ) it was fun too :D Well, so it was 3-1, ssp won. Yay sports school! Oleeeh, hmm, don't forget about the bet!

I was thinking about something today, and felt so frustrated. Idk what to do. It sucks.
Anw I'll try come back and post pictures. If blogger and facebook is being good today (:

2009-08-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

Back at home, resting, not a slacker or a pig :D hee.
bored.
shoot tmr have science honours paper. Sucks.
Okay byebye go study (:

2009-08-17T20:18:00.000-07:00

sigh, so boring. maths now. mr ho in reservice. idk how to spell the word. but never mind you get the picture.
facebook sucks now. can't comment or type, only click or play games. not fun. so sian. all i can do is blog, which i am doing now, and stone, or message (message celynn and bryan (brother la haha
(: )
there's still another half period to go, idk what to do.
no relief teacher here, we don't know why. she disappeared into thin air :D and binsar's here, asking, "why are you all here? what are you all here for? how did you all come here?" HAHA, like we sneaked into the com lab to play like that. hmm, okay i shall describe what's happening now cos i've nothing better to do. only maths which is hwk.
next to me is an empty chair. okay fine actually my phone and my ipod thing, but my ipod kena "stolen" by alin to play taptap (: Alin's supposed to sit next to me, but she's gone to talk to binsar with farhana (: then tingfang, dunno doing what, but she looks engrossed in what she's doing on the com. i shall go check it out hahah. AH, she's imeeming. haha.
to my right: darren playing some game which he claims it's kinda lame and stupid, says he doesn't really know what the game is about but just play for fun. some shooting game on facebook la. and when his character dies, he would shriek (only sometimes when i went tocheck haha) or like it dies then, "oh, death." hahaha. then danial and sumedha the same too..
LOL OH MY I JUST REALIZED THE SOCCER GUYS ARE SITTING IN ONE ROW. so coooool right! haha adam, faizal, nic and zac. i heard, "can buy anything ah?" from adam. i wonder what they're talking about. and what they're playing. i shall not interfere (: EE WALAOEH nic purposely act tall, put his chair till like that and sit till so tall.
OOOH behind me: shit i forgot his name, damn. oh okay i remembered again (: mingshun sitting really really really close to dion. really la, very close okay! like shoulders touching, eeyer. then qiwen, darren bay, leslie and shoot what's his name ah. ohh yuji. oops. yup yuji sitting at the end. all playing games mann. typical guys la. all so engrossed also. hmm i wonder what leslie's doing. hope not looking at girls on facebook again. HAHA HILARIOUS.
behind them, is marissa, hongyuan, -empty- ( think it's dinah, went to the toilet), nadia. must be doing chinese hwk, so guai (: oh and nad's using facebook. i think. last heard vikki tell her to stop spamming with comments :O
right at the back, sarah, glynis, vikki and olivia (the netballers (: ) playing i guess. on facebook. too lazy to go check!
haha if you read carefully, you'll realize that i'm sitting at the front! too lazy, so just went to the first com i see then sat down (: mann my leg's hurt. literally. hurt a lot. stuuupid.
hmm binsar's gone so farhana and alin's learning the spelling bee thing for the qualifiers. sigh need to learn it asap, i'm only halfway through! i left the spelling list in the room , dang. so i borrowed danial's one, heehee. he doesn't need it anyway.
i'm guessing almost the whole class' is on facebook. well everybody likes facebook. almoooost everybody.
BOREEED. yess still got, seven more minutes to go! yessssssssssss.
napfa five items was ytd. okayokay la. some people did 2.4 ytd, the others will do today, which is including me, die. legs hurt. i shall see if i get through the day first :D
stomach hurts too cos of the five items ytd! everybody was so hardcore.
HAHAHAHAHAH.
shall learn spelling too.
1. refractory
2. execrable
3. defalcate
4. dissever
5. expeditious
6. circumlocution
7. laissez-faire
8. pulchritude
9. scintilla
10. lugubrious
...
there's 50 more words to go, i only learned 30.
hmm now rest.

ahhh go to maxgames.com then click on plasma burst. that's what they're playing.
"at the last part always die one." hahahah -darren-
yay the bell just rang. okay byebye.

2009-08-15T06:34:00.000-07:00

hello, back from THAILAND!
wheeeeeeeeeeeee it was so fun, i can't wait for next year's to come (: it'll be at nakhon sawan, this year's was nakhon si thammarat. haha i tell you, the thais are really friendly. underline and bold REALLY friendly.
the trip was worth it, got to know people better, the runners group and trackers really bonded, i found out different people's true character (haha marc's!) and learnt lots of lessons and stuff. my events weren't so bad. but i guess it's okay now. shouldn't think about it much, just move on.

uhmm stupid blogger can't do much now. wanted to post stuff up but, ARGHH it's in this stupid state now so only can typr -.- pathetic.
anw shall come back and continue. only if this blogger thing changes.
(:

2009-08-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

LALALA flying off tmr morning to thailand! haha yayyy.
i'll be rooming with wanqin and liyan. so cool right. united as one (:
and my events are on national day. under 18, 800m and 1500m! HAHA it'll be, big big small big big hahaha.
it'll be so fun i tell you. cos it's my first time ;D
andand ): national day in thailand? mann. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE SINGAPORE!
i'm rushing rushing rushingggggg! now's my "bedtime" but i'm not even done posting and transferring songs! WTH.
wheee these days no school this week, everyone's been asking. "no school for you? why?" so tiring to tell them the reason. and also i felt like some loner kid on some stupid mc but i'm not fortunately(:
going to thailand is and will be loads of fun, but i'll miss my friends and family badly. luckily i'm coming back (: i'll try use the internet in the airport or when available!
can't call or sms cos it costs loaaaads.
then also, walaoeh so irritating, we have to do this project -.- project alpha, beta or omega. we're only done sorting out the people. well not really, still have one more slot. that slot needs a guy cos in our group we alr have one guy and don't want him to be a loner. haha see we so nice right ;D
BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT!
nothing.
have you seen/heard the, "what do you see" by electrico song? OMG so nice, idk my everyone says it sucks though. lyrics are nice, the last part (:
haha tmr wake up 430 ):
imagine if that's my daily wake up time. i'd die. whew.
anwwww, gotta go. sleep (:
oh yeah, i cut my hair till short short! BOOOO.
byebye then ):
i'll miss you loads.

(:

There’s a jewel on the ocean,

a gem upon the sea

Where the future is an open book

A land of destiny

We could set our sights into the wind and sail the seven seas

or climb the highest mountain top as long as we believe

What do you see? What do you see?

See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come

Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun

With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring

What do you see? What do you see?

Now the time has come to reach out,

To open up to see

That we stand together in this land

Cos we are family

As thoughts of reaching to the sky are carried on a dream

With hearts and minds united, our dreams we will achieve

What do you see? What do you see?

See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come

Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun

With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring

What do you see…

What do you see when life makes you take on a mountain

You’ll see that nothing’s gonna stand in your way

Together we can share

The strength of a million

and the courage of a million more

See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come

Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun

With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring

Cos the sky’s the only limit when you’re not afraid to dream

What do you see? What do you see..

2009-08-02T08:11:00.000-07:00

UGHH i desperately want to change my blogskin and add some links and change some of them. but it's so tough to choose, yeah i know i'm kinda picky but well, that's me. bro's helping me find too, so sweet (: HAHA and then suddenly my dad comes along and helps too!
anwanwanw it's now 11! so late right (: it's cos there's no school for the ssp students next week! why?
we're going to thailand (:
ee so cool huh! i can't wait for it! celebrating national day ther though.
mann it's late now, i shall come back tmr and continue posting cos i'm not done posting yet! :D

2009-07-23T04:43:00.001-07:00

heck man this com is weird.

2009-07-18T07:06:00.000-07:00

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

2009-07-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

i was just thinking today, about the future and outcomes. I guess I was scared till i cried a little. cos it's the stuff that you do, the choices that you make, the path that you choose to take, things you say, your actions, etcetc. little things make a difference. be careful, cos it may not be the way you wanted it to be.
feeling regretful doesn't really help now, like crying over spilt milk doesn't help too. you just have to keep going, y'know, and work loads harder.
*
sometimes I reckon that life, is living it to the fullest. think, is your life as good as it gets? go all out to achieve our dreams, and think that no one's/nothing's gonna stop you from achieving the impossible, believe deep down in you that you can. don't get pulled down ever, by anything.
*
back from school. school was somewhat good this week. but i missed home, my family. they play a part in my life, they are important. friends too. People make a difference.
*
going to Thailand sports school games. Excited (: and during the September holidays ms jenny said we're going to Kota tinggi. academy outing I guess. haha sounds real fun and cool. can't wait. Yay! (:
Oh yeah soccer guys have their nationals now? How late is that? Anw good luck all of you, all the best!
:DD
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

2009-07-12T06:45:00.000-07:00

okay here goes.
you just have to agree with me on this okay. you just have to. okay fine, i just want to say, you MUST agree with me on this-.-
so life, it's just not fair. you think about it sometimes, and then you wonder, "just what the heck is going on?!" there's ups, and of course, downs. just like a stupid thrilling rollercoaster. but no wheels on the coaster, if you can get what i mean, sorry i'm prone to talking rubbish. yeah so on to it, sometimes it sucks. like it's not worth the ticket. you feel angry, upset or whatever (etcetc) that you've wasted your money on that idiot ticket. well i just think that's about the same as life.
life, is uhm, well, life i guess? when it sucks, hold on, keep going, it's soon gonna go upupup. you never know what's going to happen yet. and you can't just give up on it yet right. JUST CAN'T.
yes, you just, cannot give up.
keep going.

part two soon(:
school tmr, help.

2009-07-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

HEYYY. well here i am.
again, i'm just here to say this blog's not really dead. yet.
i'm in school. now's what? 230? a few more hours till training.
okay fine maybe not a few hours but, it's in, hmm let me count, one and a half hours time? yeah. i have this slight hope. i hope it rains. muahaha cos running on grass is very sian. and, on grass for most of the week, we ran on the track for like, only a few times this week? no life. i need a life. hope next week it'll be more fun. hehe. and did i mention school's very sian too? IT IS, OKAY.
haha ms chiobu. sitting next to moi. laughlaugh, typetype. LOL.
i wanted to post about last week but maybe i'll post it at home not in school. cos it'll make a lot of noise as the keyboard's like this old version and when i type it'll be like, clickclackclickclack very noisily. haha you know what i mean.
yup just came back to my seat cos i saw two chiobus (hahaha) watching a movie, looking very engrossed. now i'm back to my seat. hehe i'm so lame!
just waved to mrs gan. she's pregnant! wheeeeeee.
i am so boreeed seriously. BEE-OH-ARR-EE-DEE. haha that spells bored :D you see how bored i am. you get the picture.
what happened to my cbox/tagboard also la. i can't view it here but at home i can. :/
oh okay i should get offffff now later i'll be late! (:
*

2009-06-28T04:28:00.000-07:00

Byebye ): off to stupid check in!
I really wanted to post about ytd and today, but it's too late cos the time for checking in for the lower is 6 to 8 and upper is 8 to 10, and now's 730.
I guess it's back to school now, groannn. no fun. Can't wait for another round of holidays though (:
Okay, I'm no superwoman, but I have 7 plus bags to carry. Oh nooo.

2009-06-26T07:17:00.001-07:00

:) smilesmile :DD

2009-06-26T06:24:00.000-07:00

"all right, who invited boss lady this time?"
Haha super funny, I'm watching this rented movie and blogging at the same time, how cool is that huh. (: hehe.
Man, school starts on monday and check in starts on sunday evening. sigh, how fast did the holidays pass by? Too fast till I couldn't catch up with it. I'm only looking forward to school but not class. Probably mostly everyone feels the same I think. Haha now I can't wait for december! :D
sigh. Class? Class! class class class. Back to old ordinary boring classes and school. bleh, and chinese class. sitting next to, ahem, jinglong (big groan) it's like, omg, die la! ruin my chinese class also, lucky I have an "accomplice", haha so it's not that tough. Always arguing, wth for also la. But I remember camp when I first started an arguement too, yeahh and I owned him hehe! plus class= Lao shi being angry most of the times, mr ho giving us that lame leaving pass if we're naughty or whatever -.- haha and mr kwok being called mr ho, HAHAHAH! But I think, I'm looking forward to school like, 55% (;

HAHAHAHA!

Sorry that was nothing.
Lol. aw man I really think I'm weird.
sometimes, I think life's too boring for me, I get restless. That, is not good.
sighhh, I'm into sigh mode now, don't ask me why. but I know that it's really bad cos it was bad the last time it happened. Well.
Tsktsk whoa I'm really sorry, I'm talkin rubbish.
Lalala.
I don't like h1n1. makes me feel a lil scared now, wth. Hateithateithateit!
sigh.

2009-06-23T07:14:00.000-07:00

No Boundaries
Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
*

2009-06-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

Happy fathers' day! (:
hope you enjoyed your day dad.
I owe you a present. hahah.
what?! it's true.

hmm people going to ICG tonight. Flying off to Athens, Greece at 1am! they're now at the airport, hehe I know cos alin just called me(: the trip sounds like fun, but before fun, concentrate on the comp first! Anw yeah, good luck guys.

I wonder, just how many overseas comps are there. many schoolmates have been flying off and going out of sing for some comp. in fact, so many that I can't count. but it's cool (: (;

I'm confused cos some people have been saying that they extended another week of holidays for us cos of H1N1. I doubt the government will do that though. Well, wait for news.

OHYEAH.
phua's birthday is tmrw. Can't wait to dunk him. HAHA.
Yay.
Eh nic, yay for what ah.

2009-06-18T07:21:00.000-07:00

guess what i'm angry at now.

my damn phone!

ohman, it's gonna die soon. the screen is really bad and i can't see anything. well, yeah, almost everything can't be seen.
can't i give it CPR and then it'll be okay? anw fat hope. handphones aren't human, you nicole dope, toot.
argh! sad la. now i have to send it for reservice and when i get it back the stuff on the phone memory will be all gone.
and haha actually i should be angry at myself, not really giving tlc to it -.-
haha so the phone gets revenge!
lol omgg i'm so weird la. and lame. oh cool i just thought of this: i'm weirdly lame. or, lamely weird. AHAHA -.-

training today was okay. i felt super stiff. can't move fast enough.
tmr train with yjl/csc again.
not morning though, cos they're going ecp to run. afternoon just go and swimswimswim.

haha hilarious! hearing my sister filling out the forms with my mother's help are just really funny that i can't concentrate on blogging and make me just wanna listen to her. lol you see, i am weird.
but vikki says that weird= awesome.
haha that's a hypothesis.
i have yet to test it out and make it a theory (:
it's like chem. or is it physics.
IDK.
okay i give up blogging. multi tasking is just, difficult.
shall listen to the nonsense the family's talking about!
and it's not really nonsense. just stuff.

goodnight.

abcdefghijklmnopqrustvwxyz, now i know my ABC, next time won't you sing with me!

bleah.

2009-06-12T07:51:00.000-07:00

today was fun but tiring. i guess it was still quite worth it though.
so anw after training (i was wondering if i could even make training-.-) went to downtown east. met almost the whole group for the wildwildwet thing for some team bonding (??) um actually the rides weren't that good, but it was the company that made it fun (:
after it we went for lunch, and it was super funny. HAHAHA OMG. i won't say though. too lazy to say.
then to EHub, for a movie, Ghosts of girlfriends past! lol was quite nice.
the guys ah, after that they went to the arcade and the played and played and, well, playeddd. the girls also played but not as much as them!
but soon we had to go home, so some of us split and went different ways la-.-
and blahblah, now i'm here.
and fast forward by five minutes, i'll be in bed. sleeping.
gnight! :D

2009-06-10T07:17:00.001-07:00

i feel like crap.

2009-06-09T06:22:00.001-07:00

this new song's not bad, it just sounds kinda draggy and it does sound a little.

21 Guns- Green Day
Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

i like the lyrics too (:
to ALIN: haha yeah thanks Alin, no problem, if we have the same problem again we'll go to each other k? (: or if one of us have the same prob again we go to each other! hehe thanks also (:

manmanman wthwthwth. my group for the damn science project is practically gonna diediedie.
hmm cos hong yuan's not communicating and marissa is going overseas and dion has so many comps D: OH NO.
tsktsk.
i'll just try going with the flow.
or maybe that's a pretty bad idea.
sigh.

2009-06-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

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it looked like i banged the keyboard but i so did not! i am human, i don't hurt keyboards at all. i just felt like doing this, bleh.
i think i'm becoming weirder (such a word??) and weirder.
WTH.

2009-06-07T04:31:00.000-07:00

What if i've tried hard, but not reached it?
it just seemed so close, but so far away.
i'm more and more frustrated, confused, then i become impatient.
i've gotta find the reason why.
the only way to get there, is one step at a time.
One Step At A Time- Jordin Sparks
Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you're gonna get there
Is one step at a time

Take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time.
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i'll always remember your words, give up, get lost, get out if you think it's too tough. it is very, and sometimes i feel like breaking down and crying. but i don't wanna let anyone down, including myself. i've gotta try and try, even if i fall, i'll get up again. even if bruises are all over me, i'll run till the finishing line. nothing can stop me, cos this time i'm gonna try my bestest. i've learnt this harsh lesson, i'm never gonna repeat that mistake again, i promise.
i really deserve this, it hurts, but it'll heal and get better in time. i'm sorry for all i've done. all that had hit me and all that i've done, gave me this comsequence.
was i weak? was i wrong? were you right?
was this meant to hit me? is this what life should be for me?
why's life at the downest of the downest? why can't i climb up? will i reach the top again?
all's up to me.

Come Clean- Hillary Duff
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
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well, it wasn't meant to be perfect anw.
thank you-
Brendon, for telling me your under 18 story.
Ben, for winning the jug kettle thingy and making me laugh.
Kuna, for telling me it's okay.
Marc, for asking me if i'm okay.
Wan qin, for encouraging me.
Mr Guy, for hiding his disappointment and encouraging me.
Dad, for the very harsh scolding.
Mum, for being much gentler than dad.
Wendy, for being a nice senior.
the runners group, for being a great group.
plus a few more people, but can't think already.

Stop And Stare- OneRepublic
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...
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i don't know what's with the lyrics, sorry.
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but i have something to yay about now (:

2009-06-05T05:54:00.000-07:00

Our Deepest Fear
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-Marianne Williamson

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haha omg this is damn cool and cute (:

Life In Technicolor- Coldplay
There's a wild wind blowing
Down the corner of my street
Every night there the headlights are glowing

There's a cold war coming
On the radio I heard
Baby it's a violent world

Oh love don't let me go
Won't you take me where the streetlights glow
I could hear it coming
I could hear the sirens sound
Now my feet won't touch the ground

Time came a-creepin'
Oh and time's a loaded gun
Every road is a ray of light
It goes o-o-on
Time only can lead you on
Still it's such a beautiful night

Oh love don't let me go
Won't you take me where the streetlights glow
I could hear it coming
Like a serenade of sound
Now my feet won't touch the ground

Gravity release me
And dont ever hold me down
Now my feet won't touch the ground.

2009-06-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

you are not who you think you are okay. you think that you're super important and all, so great and everything that you think everyone in the whole world loves you! that, is also totally not true at all. so shut up. pfft what crap la. i know you're good in your sport, but that doesn't mean you're great whole. and can't you have patience. for once. not like everyone is free and not busy like you huh. sheesh. you just turned my whole world upside down. you S.U.C.K. wth you. you're not worth my time so, HMPH. i shall stop, i shall be good (:
sigh. that sucked. if only i could say your freakin name out loud.
maybe i can.
but i shall not! resist the temptation (:
hehe today was an average today. guess i have nothing to say here, just the stuff up there.
whatever.

2009-06-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

man. ytd's national juniors thing wasn't that good. i wanted to cut down three secs but plus three-d instead. sigh. how ironic. or whatever that word is. i forgot that word. but looking on the bright side, i gotta thank people (: yall earn credit (: hehe learnt that from tsaqif and he learnt that from nicole liaw! cool huh.
TSAQIF, for motivating me always!
MAGDALENE, for wishing me luck and keeping me company.
CHUNYEN, for keeping me company too! (don't worry i'll keep you company too (: )
JANNAH, for being an awesome friend!
LIYAN, helpin me with my problems (:
BRYAN, supporting me.
NICOLE LIAW, CHERYL, ROSHINI, CRESENT GIRL, DIONNE, CHARLYN! thanks for giving me a nice race ytd, but actually it was crap for me but who cares.
MR GUY, nice coach you are!
MY PARENTS, thanks (:
ALIN, having the same problem as me, helping me with mine too.
can't think of anyone else, i'll continue tmr cos there's training in the morning.

2009-05-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

OH CRAP. tmr's national juniors, and wth am i scared for. i'm scared scared scared, don't know why. D: ahhh help!!
sigh. hope that the time would pass fast enough, that way it won't really kill me. i hope.

2009-05-29T06:43:00.000-07:00

training was super duper extremely tiring today, sigh wth.
the june hols are here (: hehe yayy! training everyday though. D:

2009-05-24T04:39:00.000-07:00

national junior's soon. few more days to it! hope i do my pb (:
anw ytd's open house was kinda fun. but tiring of course, helping out at registration was back breaking. haha from 1030 til 4 we were there! but it started at 1230 actually, and i escaped for a break in the middle of it heehee. the principal's talk was supposed to end at 330, but it was damn long la! so immediately was the trial. really really tiring, but the students were worst than us. muahahah they had to run 50metres, then broad jumps twice, hurdles twice and 600m (: i was in charge of group 3. YAY GROUP THREE!-.- but i kept forgetting whether mine was group two or three.
after open house went to dylan's house. his birthday. i was really tired so didn't participate much, sorry.
ahh there's a trial during training tmr D: still scary i tell you.
byebye goodearlynight (:

2009-05-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

YOU. argh now i don't feel like saying it. well! tmr! SCHOOOOOOOL-O.

2009-05-14T20:53:00.000-07:00

ehh yay in com lab now supposed to do the science thingy but i'm not. cos i finished alr? haha. aw man the bell just rang. :/ byebye. can't wait to get back home!

2009-05-10T06:46:00.000-07:00

not everything has a happy ending.
i don't want him to leave. why does he have to leave! ): i know it's part of our fault, the other 1/4's cos it's for us. i'm really sorry, i really am. and i think that that it's your last decision, final. goodbye, you've been really good to us.
things aren't really going that well for now. i need God's guidance to help me through (: i needta pull myself together too, i can't go on like this can i. but it's real tough.
i have school tmr, cause the school made our holiday for tmr to be on last friday, which sucks. it isn't fair.
life's like that, really. there's ups, and downs. apparently, i feel like i'm at the down part now, idk why, don't ask, thanks.
GAHHHH training tmr morning, so i'll have to drag myself outta bed again ):

2009-05-01T03:52:00.000-07:00

UGH. camp's now but well, here i am. i wasn't feeling that good last night so i went back. and the doc doesn't know what's wrong with me and so it's retarded being at home and not at camp. i should've gone to the chalet for the trackers from other schools now butbut, i can't go then spread the germs, well, that is, if my sickness' the type that can spread. i wanna go back to camp! i wasn't exactly looking forward to it but, i'm the type that won't wanna go back or anything once it starts, i'll just want to finish the whole thing. AND GUESS WHAT. my phone, ipod, wallet, etc is still with them. wth sad la. cos we had to surrender our electronic devices, valuables and all to them, to have a more conductive environment, that's what they said, and worse- i'll only get them all back on monday when i get back to school, while the other campers get them back tmr when camp finishes. arghh. i can't live without them you know, really. so.. HELP!
i haven't wrote about the nationals have i? guess i forgot. uh. track was okay. kinda tough but it was not bad. 1500m was 5th, 800m was 8th. i wanna try break the record next year so i've gotta jiayou! haha(:
swimming was.. undescribable. heehee cos dropped 2secs for 100m breaststroke (my pb was done in training!) and 100m back got disqualified. sad huh. but still, for back i dropped 5secs off my pb. buck up nic. JUST DO IT.
OHH and i'm never gonna talk about getting DQed before my events anymore. that topic is real bad luck. ]:< NAOMI, SAW THAT. don't ever bring up that topic, else.. ! (:
huh. oh well i have to accompany my mum to watch tv now, so, it ends here (:

2009-04-26T05:59:00.000-07:00

ARGH. SWIMMING IN THE SMALL LANE ISN'T FUN. could'nt swim fly, think i take too mush space, hit my hand onto the pole, now it hurts! omg.
sigh, tmr there's training. morning! at 630. BIG SIGH.

2009-04-24T07:55:00.001-07:00

AWESOME SCHOOL NATIONALS (: HAHA. idk what they did to make me like school nationals (: that was weird. really weird. ugh. WOW WOW WEE :D

2009-04-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

NATIONALS IS COMING!! argh. oh i did post about that in the recent post. geuss i forgot huh? okay so change topic. hmm(:
i cut my hair. so now i look toot): really toot.

2009-04-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

gah i have training tmr at 330 and then i have my 800m on monday): it's all too soon.

2009-04-06T21:33:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA! ohmygoodness, dion. mr jiow totally rocked! (: haha. kidding. now it's geog class, supposed to be researching on volcanoes and everything, but.. yeah (: cos now it's almost the end of lunch so everyone is trying to use the internet when mr jiow's not here yet. YAY!! :D uh oh, he just came in.

2009-04-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

AWARDS NIGHT WAS FUNNN! but wth, i need to go sleep now): so tmr i'll talk about it(:

2009-03-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

omg sph relay was fun except that my run kinda sucks. 4x4 i was second runner so i freaked out cos i didnt know how to receive the baton and cut in. tmr im gonna take part in the 4x800 so.. yeah(:

2009-03-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

saturday's training was fun(: swam for a while but it was thundering and all so we stopped. did land exercises then played animal game. ohmygosh was it hilarious! hahah.
now using eugenia's laptop(thanks(:) but ive gotta sleep now. i was just, hmm, "visiting"? heehee. :D

2009-03-21T00:56:00.000-07:00

:/ heehee. (:

2009-03-17T01:37:00.000-07:00

ARGH. snag was crap. all my timings were crap. damn. i screwed it up.
but we've gotta leave the past behind right? haha.. last week's english lesson was fun! (: we had to write some informal letter stuff then we had a chance to see the papers after they were marked. one pair's work was really hilarious. it was like, "how could you?!" and then they keep repeating that phrase. i know that repeating helps in convincing but it aint helping in your marks. lol.
and then the last part was," ...but you have taken advantage of me". it sounded like a breakup letter didnt it? that was olivia's point of view(: and worse, the letter was unfinished. i guess the person writing the letter had brokened down before writing finish the letter :D HAHAH..

080309

2009-03-08T07:11:00.001-07:00

4 more days to snag. oh im scared(:

2009-03-07T06:05:00.001-08:00

haha,today's training was damn funny, and it was not so tough too(: cos start tapering already.. i couldnt hear jiao lian's start, so i didnt jump. then i dont know who got so agitated by it, he just shouted at me to go. chill man. i just couldnt hear her cos of my blocked ear so i didnt go.
ugh i can hear practically nothingness now.

2009-02-28T22:56:00.000-08:00

hmm. im waiting for something..but i dont know what im waiting for..(: training yesterday was damn tough la.haha.oh actually all csc trainings are tough..and i need tape for my ankle!cos it was almost coming off when swimming yesterday and i found it irritating so i ripped it off:)but i think the tape helps with supporting my ankle..
sigh, i feel kind of weird now,this weird weird feeling that i dont know how to explain..

29 feb09

2009-02-27T05:42:00.000-08:00

oh my foot's taped.haha.cool..i kind of love kuna's idea.cos yesterday ms jenny forgot to hire a bus to bring us to macritchie for today's training,so in the end we got a low class bus instead,and the bus was like parked in a hidden area so not everyone could see it.then kuna asked josiah where the bus was,and then he said,"eh lets run to macritchie lah!" and everyone was saying,"set!" haha.eh how about trying it next week ms jenny?that would be "cheaper".haha.
the seniors didnt get to pour water on me(:yay.

2009-02-21T22:23:00.000-08:00

ah.today's race, was..fun i suppose?and i saw jermaine!!!but she was in her blue shirt.sobs..hmm..im looking forward to next week,so i can see chun yen and cheritta again(: i dont wanna go back to school,its like another week of tiredness and..and.. heh, i cant think of a word to describe it.
i feel kind of sad now,cos its raining.mmm..whats wrong with me??thats wierd..oh i should have gone for training today,cos rachel said it was not so tough and towards the end it was fun!so i felt i should have gone..sigh..sometimes sighing helps,you know (:
oh and im pissed off with someone,even though i dont sound like it,the feeling's deep within me.mr quek is the worst coach ever.i dont wanna say more.

2009-02-20T22:24:00.000-08:00

oh damn.some of my songs are not what ive wanted for this blog.sigh..never mind i'll change it another time..haha jermaine just messaged me saying that the room in sentosa is so small for her family.a bed in the room for the four of them in the family to share.whoa thats like,so small..i wonder whats shes gonna do about it.hahaha.yay!im gonna see her tmr.hopefully in her bikini(:she said that theres a 50percent chance of seeing her in it.or thats what i presume.

2009-02-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

sigh..why oh why..im so tired..i cant believe it.i dont wanna come back from school and feel so tired everytime.that sucks.

2009-02-15T00:33:00.000-08:00

sheesh.im damn tired,but im willing myself not to fall asleep.yesterday's race was really one of a kind,i felt like dizzy and numb all over after the race,and yeah,i died.but after the race it was sweet,cos yeah..haha,i came in first and like overtook the four people in front at the last minute,and won the first in like 0.3 seconds.i dont know why but overtaking at the last minute is my speciality,and sometimes that can be quite bad.my parents will like stare in shock as i do that.hahaha.oh and there are two disappointing things,i got scolded for running outside the curves,and that time we did goal setting,i set this time but i didnt meet it yesterday,i missed it by 12 seconds..sigh.. bad,bad..oh oh,and today training really was tough,did like 400 im sprint, then right after,400 free sprint,and theres more.so i think tmr i really need someone to carry me everywhere.haha.kidding.oh AND,sports school came in second again for the team c division girls.thats quite good,and river valley came in first.wow.BEFORE I FORGET,happy belated valentines day!!hahaha.thats so late.AHH.why suddenly everyone on msn talk to me,now im like so busy..whoa whoa whoa slow down people..hahaha.ah suddenly so sian.wierd.

2009-02-13T01:28:00.000-08:00

gosh.im late im late im late for the ptm.but why am i still at home?!argh.i must be crazy to do this.ahhhhhh.

2009-02-10T05:37:00.000-08:00

HEEHEEHEE.im in the rec room now.usually go there for using the coms only(:but they all suck.cant go msn.so saad..today miss jean didnt come cos she lost part of her voice and so she couldnt really talk.thn we had this sort of relief teacher,she was waiting for her a level results and had a sister in sports school..and she was THE BEST.hahaha.she let us off early five minutes for two of our periods and even let us listen to music when doing our assignment!whoa..we were like,in shock when she told us we could listen to music..oh and jiao lian lah!i cant really walk.i cant balance on one leg or else i will fall down..it hurts..yuan jiao lian really specialises in jumps(:and wings is coming in a few days,on valentines day!!so if i cant run,i'll blame her for it.haha.no la,i wont do that,im a nice girl(:

2009-02-08T05:20:00.000-08:00

omg.training is damn fun,i just love it to bits!haha.i was kidding..it totally SUCKED.was quite tiring but in the middle i gave up and slacked.hahaha..jiao lian is so good,she didnt even care about me!!whee!!(: oh and,today's training was not as tiring as saturday's,which is gooooood.sigh..i miss b1..tomorrow i have to go back to school,and im really dreading it.cos theres module tests to do,and theyre really scary.but im happy cos track training wont be so tough this week cos on saturday theres this cross country race..wings i think..haha..im such a slacker..thats bad..i need to motivate myself for trainings!!ah whatever.i dont careeeeee.

2009-02-07T00:05:00.000-08:00

i am so dreading training this afternoon.i know that i will practically die and i will not keep up.a2's training is a hundred times more tougher than b1's and so i need all the luck i can get(:

2009-01-30T04:46:00.001-08:00

I AM DEAD.